If 2016 taught me anything, it most definitely was that life doesn’t always go to plan, but it’s still worth having one. I’m not even sure if I really had a plan for 2016. I know I wanted to run 1,000 miles, but with the ITB problem at the beginning of the year, it seemed impossible. Having the idea of running 1,000 miles definitely stopped me from giving up. Little did I know where the year would take me.
If you had have told me I’d run New York Marathon, I would have probably have laughed. If you’d have told me I would meet some great running buddies who live in the same village as me, I probably wouldn’t have believed you. If you had have told me we’d loose so many talented and special people in 2016, I probably would have made more effort to show them how much I appreciate them.
It was also the year I’ve smashed the 30 minute 5km (with a PB of 27.52), the year I became a trustee of Blue Skye Thinking and the year I became a Neal’s Yard consultant.
Despite all of these “achievements”, 2016 has definitely been a year which has stripped me of my emotions. I’ve spent the last few months feeling numb. Very little has sparked my interest and in all honesty I’ve dreaded most things with a passion. 2016 seems to have tried to steal my enthusiasm and optimism. I have become negative and scared.
One of my favourite songs is Michael Jackson’s Man in the Mirror. “If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make that change.”
I need to change my attitude and outlook. I need to rid myself of the things which are causing my anxiety and enjoy the little things in life again. There are some things in life you cannot change, but I believe there is a lot you can do in life, if you work hard enough. One step at a time. Listening to the still, small voice inside. You never know what might happen.
I don’t know what 2017 will hold, but I do have a plan for some of the things I would like to achieve. I will reach 1,000 miles in 2017. I will spend more time with my family. Combine the two and you have a little race tourism 🙂
My race calendar currently looks a bit like this:
12th March – Bath Half
19th March – Reading Half (For Sue Ryder in memory of my Aunty Diane)
28th May – Liverpool Rock n Roll Half
1st-11th June – Endure 24
2nd July – Women’s Running 10k MK
19th August – Race the Train 14 miles (Wales)
24th September – Ealing Half
8th October – Oxford Half (Hopefully with my lovely friend Esther)
29th October – Candleford Canter 10k
TBC Dec – Andy Reading 10k
I also have the holiday of a lifetime to Jamaica and our family trip Disneyland Florida. I am hoping to grow and nurture my little Neal’s Yard team and business. Help raise awareness for Blue Skye Thinking. See Run Mummy Run get stronger and stronger. May be do a run leaders course to help our little running group get stronger. I want to spend more time with our friends and include a few date nights. They are all exciting opportunities. Everyone of them will push me out of my comfort zone and the thought of doing them, fills me with fear.
“What if I fall” – oh but darling, what if you fly.
I learned a lot about myself in 2016. I’ve learned I can carry on when everything inside me is telling me to give up. I can’t tell you what 2017 will hold, but I do know that no matter how scared I feel right now, I’m going to make the most of what I’ve got.
Happy New Year – I hope it sees you well xx